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It's hard to believe 9/11 was already 9 years ago...
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
Dropping the Rock
It was heavy, quite cumbersome, holding the girth of that rock
My fingers laced around its cool stomach, a white knuckled clutch
He told me to drop it, “Please, just let it go.”
But as awful as that big stone was and as hard as it was to carry
I didn’t wish to see it leave, it somehow felt safe, familiar
For me, it represented love, security, family
He said, “Put it down and I will give you something better.”
“Something worthy of your care, something of real value.”
But I continued to hang onto that stone for dear life
I didn’t want to face uncertainty, I didn’t want my hands to be empty
They had never been that way before
Having this exhausting burden was better than not having anything at all
Or so I thought
“Let it go.” He murmured softly into my ear
So with a groan, I let it slip, it tumbled to the earth
It rolled very slightly and found comfort in a shallow niche
My bottom lip quivered as I fought back embittered tears
Although I felt much lighter already, I was still sad to see it go
I stared at my bare palms, they were open, naked and forlorn
Unused to this barren state, they looked pink and pitiful, terribly small
Here was the moment I had dreaded, it was a terrifyingly frightening time
Now, I had to trust the promise that my friend had made me
This would require pure faith, the kind I wasn’t sure I contained
“Just put them together.” He humbly requested
“To form a deepened cup.”
This he instructed while pointing to my hands, I obeyed in silence
I had given up my cherished rock, what more was there to lose?
With my eyes tightly closed and apprehension in my womb
I waited for that longed for gift, the replacement for my pain
I waited for what seemed like an eternity, I breathed, sighed and waited
It didn’t happen all at once, I even wondered if it would occur
But soon, as he had vowed, it began to pour into my hands
I felt the prickles of a ticklish rain, massage my upturned palms
At first, it stung, then kind of kissed and quickly filled the hole
The sensation was like a spray of baby breath with fairy dust
And a dash of perfect peace
Finally, I could stand it no longer, my eyelids fluttered open
I had to see this thing!
With a cry, with a gasp, to my utter astonishment
Something beautiful had indeed been wrought
My hands were filled with diamonds
Yes, DIAMONDS!
Big ones, clear and true
Like stars misplaced from heaven
They twinkled, glistened and gleamed
I returned my gaze to the brown rock, it hadn’t moved an inch
It was speckled and arrayed in dirt
Mired in the paralyzing clay
I looked again at the gems that were overflowing in my hands
And a realization hit me strong
“I can’t believe I treasured that!” I sighed
My amazement filled my soul
Out of breath, half out of my mind
I began to giggle, loud and unabashed
Still unsure as to what all of this meant
I glanced at my best friend
He was laughing too
There was a mystery here indeed…
“God is pleased to fill your hands with diamonds.” He explained
“But they must first be empty and open…”
So there is room to receive them.”
© Launa Stan
Sunday, July 11, 2010
A Living Poem
My earliest memories are filled with my father telling me that I was worthless because I was born a girl. His cruel words peeled away any sense of value that I might have initially possessed. I spent decades trying to prove him wrong. I sought importance through a myriad of worldly means, before Jesus rescued my tattered heart and saved my soul. What a mess I had become when He found me in my sin.
I believed that I was worth loving only if I was beautiful enough, physically fit, successful in my vocation, clever and highly knowledgeable in multiple areas. Despite all my achievement, I still fought with bouts of self-loathing. The old recordings in my head continued to say that I was nothing.
I love Ezekiel 16 because it describes the spiritual condition that Lord found me in, “…on the day you were born, your navel cord was not cut nor were you washed in water…no eye pitied you…but you were thrown out in an open field and were loathed…and when I passed by you and saw you struggling in your own blood, I said, “Live!” The verses go on to tell of how He had compassion and washed this unloved infant and claimed it. It continues to say that He anointed, clothed and adorned it with costly jewels. In verse 8, God spread His wing to cover the shame of nakedness and “You became mine.”
It has taken me years to understand that my true value does not come through my appearance, the number of dollars in my bank account or what people think of me, but it is because I am His child. The idea that God Almighty would make a sacrifice of His own flesh and blood son for my purchase continues to boggle my mind.
The promised Messiah wouldn’t have died for a worthless human being.
One of my favorite scriptures is Ephesians 2:10. It tells me that I am His workmanship created in Christ Jesus. The word “workmanship” is actually “poema,” which means, “Poem.” I am God’s own work of art, His poetry in motion! It is an incredible thought. I do an art form that uses my own poems to form the imagery; I visualize this verse being the same way. God’s children are walking Poetry Art. I often wonder if I looked closely at my brothers and sisters in Christ, would I see God’s own verses all over them? How often do we walk past the Lord’s poems because of their outward filth and shabbiness, in what station of life they were born into or how unlovable they appear? Imagine what divine beauty we miss!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Tapestry Of Entwined Arms
I have seen a captivating fabric
So artistically woven
With deliriously bright colors
And small intricate patterns
Only the finest materials
And adornments were chosen
To craft and embroider
Such a masterful piece
One would suspect
That this most priceless of treasures
Would delight, transcend
Intrigue and inspire
Such a generous gift
Could bring undeniable pleasure
To be enjoyed
For grateful generations to come
Yet, instead of being valued
It has been left to fray
Rather than being cherished
Or sheltered
It has been ignored, neglected
Left in disarray
Vibrant hues have become faded
All the patterns are askew
Having been unskillfully patched
Even knotted in places
It looks completely different
Than it did when it was new
This magnificent fabric I speak of
That is fast becoming unraveled
Is our children
Each one a precious thread
With a place in the weave
Though some of the strings are loose
Twisted or broken
It isn’t too late to believe
That we can restore to the innocent
The legacy of this great heirloom
That is rightfully theirs
A priceless tapestry of entwined arms
Crossed legs and laughing eyes
Of crooked smiles, bashful stares
And sweet, uncontrived wisdom
It is in our hands to unleash their potential
Open up a kaleidoscope of imaginations
Give them grass and flowers
And vast butterfly skies
But especially the undaunted courage
To dream beyond the clouds they know
We have experienced this fabric
In our own lifetime
Now, we must foster within ourselves
The bravery to help them see
We must look beyond our own four walls
To find those strands and reach for them
Bring them home, hold them dear
Smooth them out and weave them in
Do whatever it takes for them to mend
So piece by piece and bit by bit
This tapestry of enchanted youth
Can be made whole again
©Launa